it's been a while since i've written in here.

the last time i was very bitter about some things going on within my family,
but an entire summer has already passed and so has, to be it bluntly, my bitchiness.

in the beginning of the summer i grew close with some friends,
reunited with others, and finally realized the space there is between the rest.
i mean, i knew that college would change people .. but i guess i never actually realized it.
i'm a sucker for living in the past and wanting things to stay the same forever -
but we're all growing up, and things never stay the same.

i'm just thankful i can still talk to some people like it's the "good old days."

but yeah, that's lession #1 from the summer.

lesson #2 comes from my family.

after reading my last entry a couple days ago, i realized what a selfish brat i can be.
yeah, it really hurt that i was the only one who didn't go -
but how many times, how many opportunities do i get to actually go out into the world?
it's been every summer since i could remember ..
i wasted so many tears on that day bitching and complaining that i don't get to do anything,
when in fact, i'm blessed to be able to do that and more.

just because i'm the only girl in the family and i've been spoiled in the past
does not mean that i should expect everyone to schedule their time around me.
-- you know 'cuz "big girls don't cry," right?

but yeah, i have so much more on my mind to write about -
i really have to start writing in this more.

edit coming soon!